Today is apprently one of the not-so-good-day.....i miss my baby brother so much it hurts ..as i look back over my life, i find that it is very much like a book, sometimes history, sometimes comedy, sometimes tragedy and drama...that's on the good days. other times..it resembles a cheap novel, lots of pages with nothing interesting at all!!
when i examine each individual chapters, i have many mixed feelings..sometimes i found myself wishing i could revisit those times and rewrite my actions or thoughts...but it's the past..it's out of my reach ..how i wish i could conduct my relationship with my loved ones...especially that of my baby brother...the memories of him..i can lift each memory of him tenderly and with affection..i can enfold the volumes, one by one, hold them close, reliving the days i shared with him..
let's face it..we do not live in a vacuum or alone on a desert island, although our pain makes us think we do. We live as a strand in a web of life that stretches widely and touches many. what affects us affects others as well. for a time..we aren't sure who has died..the degree of numbness that encompass us makes us feel like there is no life possible without our baby brother...let's not let our grief descends us into the hell of loneliness and depression.
thank you for reading ..this is the only way i can express my sadness as result of the death of my beloved baby brother..there is no way that time will heal this pain....but i take comfort by remembering him..thinking of him and "writing" to him...
TQ .....................when you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts..God knows how hard you tried
.........when you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish..God has counted your tears
.......when you're lonely and your friends are too busy even for a phone call....God is by your side
...when you've tried everything and dont know where to turn..God is the solution..
...when nothing makes sense and you're confused and frustrated..God has the answer
..if suddenly your outlook is brighter..and you find traces of hope..God has whispered to you
