The shock..it numbs my entire body...coats my stomach in nausea, it renders me helpless. No one ever tells me grief feels so much like fear...i can smell it..i can taste it ..and it takes over my senses...
My Beloved Baby Brother...death cannot separate us..i wish i could turn back time ....so that i can be the perfect Sister to you....i am so sorry for not being there..i keep seeing flashes of snap shots..of you when you were little...you brought us so much joy and happiness...we share our past..but we will not be sharing our future....i have lost my baby brother..i lost my past..present and future....
memories of you will remain with me..i shall treasure till the end of my life...i hope we will be reunited once again. in the next life....and live happily ever after...
i loved you so very much that i would trade my life for you...only God knows...God must have a better plan and place for you...
i am overwhelmed with sorrow...it rises out of nowhere..like a wave from the sea..crashes on my shoreline.....sorrow and i are one..until, trailing frothy whitecaps..sweeps away
it has been over a month since his passing, i am still missing him terribly and the feeling will never leave...
