Wrote a poem...
Okay, I was sitting around the computer last night trying to get things done. Well, of course I start to drift of (damn procrastination) and think about my brother. SO, although I'm pretty stable now with the things around me and my every day life, I still break down sometimes because I listen to songs that remind me of him. Why do I do this? Well, I think it's because it gets late at night and being alone in my room gets to me, but whatever the reason, tonight it drove me to type up a poem about how I feel about him. I tried to make it rhyme, because I always thought those poems were the funnest to read, but anyways, I hope everyone like it. It didn't take me that long, and I didn't spell check it or whatever, but I think it should get the main ideas across...

Here it is:

"I'm still here..."

Enough said, don't you think?
To be here in the city, seeing a shrink.
It's a shame your up there, countless moments away,
Because I'm still crying over here; I'm still your missing link.

I still stand on once our hill.
I can still feel your ghost though (if I stand still).
I swear I can hear your voice too,
Which to this day makes my eyes spill.

Yeah, you know I still want you,
But it's a horrible thing; your love is askew.
Your my dellusion of grandure; my ghostly legend,
To me your world was the only I knew.

So I'm still here, holding this candle.
It's about to rain, but I'm holding the umbrella handle.
...Won't let it go out, 'cause of course, you know me,
Even if the wind blows, my thick-headed will runs free.

I always did want you though; whenever you were around.
Your smell I could always sense, one mile abound.
I wonder if you are in heaven now; I've lost the aroma,
I wish you would come back, because sometimes I feel drowned.

I think I'll stop complaining now, I think I'm finally through.
This poem I wrote at twelve o'clock, I did it out of the blue.
I still dream of our childhood memories, my wonderful little mirage.
I did this poem only for us; because you know I'll always love you.

I felt better once I typed this up, because sometimes I go on these wierd tangents where I do the psychological thing and work through my "steam" or down times. I guess tonight was one of those nights.

Well, it's almost 1 AM and I need to get up at like 3:15 AM, so I'm heading to bed. Good night everyone!
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