Sick Cycle Carousel.."I AM SORRY" I never want to hurt you!!!

I never thought I could go on living when you died,
but ~ I did.I never thought I would survive after burying you, but
~ I did.I never thought I'd get through those first days, weeks and months,
but ~ I did.I never thought I would be able to endure the first anniversary of your death,
but ~ I did.I never thought I would let myself love my new love, but ~ I did.I never thought tomorrow would be different,
but ~ it was.I never thought I would stop crying for you,
but ~ I have.I never thought that I would ever sing again,
but ~ I have.I never thought the pain would "soften,"
but ~ it has.I never thought I would care if the sun shone again,
but ~ I do.I never thought I would be able to entertain again,
but ~ I have.I never thought I would be able to control my grief,
but ~ I can.I never thought I could function without medication again,
but ~ I can.I never thought I'd smile again,
but ~ I do.I never thought I would laugh out loud again,
but ~ I do.I never thought I would look forward to tomorrow,
but ~ I do.I never thought I'd reconcile your death,
but ~ I have.I never thought I would be able to create that "new normal,"
but ~ I have.I never thought I'd want to go on living after you died,
but ~ I do.Always missing you,always loving you,and thinking of you daily,with a smile on my face ~and tears in my heart.