Today is a day I do NOT look forward to, but am sure I'll live through, as I always do. I have MANY MANY massages today, which I'm praying I'll get through without disgusting anybody. I've also had a lot of paperwork mumbo jumbo to get taken care of today...bleck.
I still feel confused about everything, and when I say everything, I mean everything. What I want to do after this year, where I want to be, my sense of abnormality, what the hell I'm doing, what I want out of a relationship, what I want out of a career, what I think 'career' means, right down to what pair of underwear do I want to wear tomorrow. All confusing. I don't expect them to clear up any time soon, but I think that a sit down with myself and an exercise in absolute honesty are well past due. Otherwise I will end up compromising on things that I shouldn't and turn out a bitter and miserable old woman.
